My dear reader!
One qote from Sivarama Swami book "The Awakening of Spontaneous Devotional Service" got me thinking:
Finally we should recall thar rāgānuga-bhakti is dependent on remembering Krsna and His associates, krsnam smaram janam cāsya. But constant rememberance is possible only when the heart has been sufficiently purified through regulated devotional service. Where such purification is absent, meditation on krsna-līla will be fragmented and unproductive. In such circumstances the sādhaka will make better use of his time and efforts to intensly concentrate on vaidhi-bhakti in order to achieve the prerequisite purity of heart.
Thursday 16 November 2017
Friday 16 June 2017
Что делать с вожделением
Вопрос: Что делать с вожделением, если много лет практикуешь, занимаешь свою природу, а оно все равно остается, и хоть бы что. Уже многое связывает с Кришной, но этот вкус материальных наслаждений все еще остается. Дайте, пожалуйста, совет или какую-то практику, как устранить эту тенденцию наслаждаться материей?
Ответ: Можно давать ответ на разных уровнях. Если давать ответ на самом высоком уровне, то, конечно же, эта тенденция остается, потому что по-прежнему остается отождествление себя со своим телом. Отношения с Кришной могут быть, стремление к Кришне может быть, одновременно с этим у нас по-прежнему остается очень крепкая самбандха с телом. Когда эта связь с телом ослабнет за счет того, что отношения с Кришной станут сильнее, то пропорционально этому будет ослабевать и проблема, вызванная материальным телом и умом. Поэтому на самом высоком уровне есть только одна-единственная вещь ─ это постоянно пытаться укреплять эту духовную связь, духовную природу. Когда мы читаем книги, когда мы думаем, когда мы проповедуем, все это укрепляет нашу духовную природу. Когда мы оскорбляем вайшнавов, духовного учителя, Божества, это все ослабляет нашу связь или, наоборот, усиливает материальную природу, отождествление себя с материей.
Практики можно давать, есть йоговские практики, которые помогают в этом, но это, в конце концов, всего лишь навсего костыли, не нужно придавать им слишком большого значения. Единственное, что можно сказать, если говорить о практике, то это посоветовать найти очень близкое общение с другими людьми.
Вожделение это или сила вожделения, влияние вожделения на нас определяется тем, насколько мы не получаем определенного вкуса. Когда человек получает духовную расу, или духовный вкус, вожделение уходит. Но даже тонкоматериальный вкус, эмоциональный вкус, вкус близкого общения с другим человеком, ощущение близости в значительной степени устраняет эту потребность в уме получать дополнительное наслаждение, потому что именно близкое общение приносит нам очень большое удовлетворение. Говорится (это физиологический факт), что женщина, когда она рождает первого ребенка, ее вожделение сразу же во много-много раз становится меньше. Почему? Ну, во-первых, потому что она постоянно занята, во-вторых, у нее есть близкое эмоциональное общение с живым существом, которое полностью зависит от нее, в-третьих, потому что все силы ее уходят на служение, она реально служит.
До какой-то степени эти три вещи также являются лекарством от вожделения. Первое ─ постоянная занятость, когда у нас нет свободной минуты, когда мы знаем четко, что нам нужно делать, и все, что мы делаем, связано с какой-то нашей целью, мы напоминаем себе об этой цели. Второе ─ это если в процессе взаимодействия с другими людьми мы вступаем в близкие эмоциональные отношения, это, безусловно, поможет. И, наконец, третья вещь: если мы служим кому-то как женщина служит своему сыну, это, можно сказать, часть отношений, потому что все отношения всегда строятся на служении, на разных формах служения, так или иначе, если мы служим кому-то, причем не просто абстрактно, а очень конкретно, то вожделение будет становиться меньше. Вот что могу сказать по этому поводу. Могу сказать гораздо больше, но это, наверное, самое важное.
Бхакти Вигьяна Госвами, веб-даршан, 02.12.2015
КАК ДОСТИЧЬ СМИРЕНИЯ
КАК ДОСТИЧЬ СМИРЕНИЯ?
1. Стараться как можно меньше говорить. Заниматься своим делом. Не вмешиваться в чужие дела.
2. С благодарностью и радостью принимать замечания и критику. Не замечать чужие ошибки.
3. Безропотно принимать обиды и несправедливости.
4. Спокойно относиться к тому, что вами пренебрегают, вас забывают, вас не любят.
5. Не стремиться понравиться, вызвать восхищение других людей. Всегда быть добрым и кротким, даже если кто-то попытается вывести вас из себя. Не стремиться к званиям и титулам. Всегда уступать в споре, даже если вы правы.
6. Всегда выбирать самое плохое место, самую тяжелую работу, самый трудный путь.
7. Гордый полагается только на себя, смиренный управляется Богом.
Гордость - источник всех пороков, смирение - мать всех добродетелей.
Гордость - источник всех пороков, смирение - мать всех добродетелей.
8. Гордый всегда обижен. Смиренный никогда не сердится, потому что ничто его не оскорбляет.
9.Гордый ищет особой любви к себе, смиренный любит сам, ничего не ожидая взамен.
10. Гордый хочет быть уникальным. Смиренный находит удовольствие в том, чтобы заниматься самыми простыми и обыкновенными делами.
11. Только в смирении правда. Все хорошее, что есть в нас (таланты, способности, красоту и т.п.) мы получили от Бога. Как можно гордиться тем, что сделано не нами, а Им?
12. Если Вы смиренны, ничто не вскружит вам голову, и никто не обидит вас, потому что вы знаете, что вы представляете собой на самом деле. Если вас обвинят во всех грехах, вы не впадете в отчаяние. Если вас назовут святым, вы не возведете себя на пьедестал. Не стоит волноваться о том, что думают о вас люди.
13. Кто ищет и любит только самого себя, тот всегда исполнен беспокойства и горести; кто, забывая самого себя, ищет во всем только Бога, тот сохраняет душу свою в мире.
Friday 2 June 2017
Ability to see
My dear reader!
For last few weeks I have been translating a manual
for device I have in my shop. Not like other ones on same shelf, this unit has quite
different user interface. I remember myself few month ago, figure out, how it works
and how to set it up. My long years of selling mobile phones gave be
confidence, that I can figure it out myself, but after 30 minutes I had to come
to conclusion, that people, who made it, have completely different approach to
button pressing. Only after translation was done and I was familiar to every
line not only on user level, but also on level of understanding good enough for
explaining in my native language, I was able to set it up with ease.
Few days ago I had a good fortune to listen to evening
talk given by one elderly man, known by the name Prithu prabhu. He is visiting
Riga temple for few days. Let me tell you one story from His class, which is
simple but with deep and useful meaning.
Prithu prabhu told his own story of life, particularly
his first weeks after he received first Vedic book, Sri Isopanishad. Reading it made him
very interested and on the third day he decided to visit local center. There
his experience of devotional lifestyle and kind attitude towards everyone,
including animals, made him change his eating habits as well. Short time after
that, he visited his mother and explained to her, how unconsidered is to be
cruel to anyone, because everyone is creation of God, every living being – be it
human, animal or bird – everyone is dear to their heavenly father as His child.
If anyone at all wants to be in good books with God, why would he make anyone
to suffer, just to feed oneself? After some time, his mother also became vegetarian
– it just felt right thing to do! Week later, she walked up to the priest in
their local church and with deep sense of discovery and joy, she told about her
new lifestyle! You will be surprised to hear the priests answer! He told: “Great!
You also have fallen in to Satan’s trap! This is demonic! Only demons are vegetarians!”.
Unfortunately, she believed the priest and went back to her nonvegetarian
habits.
As one of great and wise person, by the name Chanakya
Pandit used to say:
“King see through the eyes of his spies,
Cow see through her nose,
Man see through his eyes and mind,
Saint see through the scriptures”.
King cannot be in all parts of his kingdom, so he relays
on his man to bring him information. Cow cannot tell the difference between good
and bad grass, so she uses her nose to understand, what to eat. Man rely on seeing
and confides in his mind to tell what it is. Person, who takes advise of Good
given scripture, is known to be wise and saintly.
Knowledge of the world, its purpose and his laws are
well known to one, who has created it. It is like a manual for our benefit. Let
us not be like Adam and Eve, who thought that they know better than their
Creator, what is good for us and what not!
Why we fall for some concocted ideas, created by
uneducated priests, who God is? Hear, what he is telling himself – about world,
us and Himself! Dear brothers, use your intelligence, find pure person, pure
scripture and you will see. God is not what most of current churches preach. Look
with discrimination and find best source you can!
So, try to look at this world through the eyes of pure
scriptures and pure saints. Do not be a child, in a sense, that you have to
taste everything to find poison.
Wishing you nice weekend
Atmarama dasa.
Gem
My
dear reader!
Following advice of my dear friend
Guruttama, since yesterday this blog has new name.
Previous name was inspired by verse in Chaitanya
Charitamrita, Madhya 19.151:
"According to their karma, all living
entities are wandering throughout the entire universe. Some of them are being
elevated to the upper planetary systems, and some are going down into the lower
planetary systems. Out of many millions of wandering living entities, one who
is very fortunate gets an opportunity to associate with a bona fide spiritual
master by the grace of Kṛṣṇa. By the mercy of both Kṛṣṇa and the spiritual master,
such a person receives the seed of the creeper
of devotional service."
As a person with gardening experience,
growing the creeper of devotional service from the seed is very close to me. Still,
any of us had a time in our life’s, when we felt like we had lost it. Some did
not value it, some did take more serious, but did not look after it well
enough. Ultimately it comes to our original deviation – we all at some stage decided
do things on our own, and turned our face away from our dearest and kindest friend.
He is waiting us to come back to our home, when we are done with our private business
and provincial interests. Those of us, who have been very fortunate, have
received this gem – pure faith in the possibility to return to our native land
of holy forest groves, where will fall at the feet of our eternal owner of our
hearts.
Readers,
desiring to delve deeper into grave topic of receiving pure faith, please read
unmatched book by Sivarama Swami Maharaj. His book Suddha-bhakti-cintāmaṇi: The Touchstone of Pure Devotional
Service is the gem amongst books. This blog is my humble attempt to
understand His writings and to follow it. Just to honor this masterpiece, I
changed the title of this blog.
As this page is dedicated to everyone, who
is following path of self discovery, I will remind myself and you all:
B.G.9.2. This knowledge is the king of
education, the most secret of all secrets. It is the purest knowledge, and
because it gives direct perception of the self by realization, it is the
perfection of religion. It is everlasting, and it is joyfully performed.
Sincere souls take this knowledge and find
joy on every step. I wish you all - take it seriously and with faith. Whatever
doubts you encounter - clear them out.
No joy or happiness, you had so far, can
be compared to that inner satisfaction, which you feel, when you have discovered
your real nature- always blissful spiritual spark. When cleansed of all
unwanted dirt, pure soul shines with worm invisible light from your heart,
almost bursting out!
I pray to all great souls - please bless
me with attentiveness and wisdom, so I go on polishing and do not lose this
rarest of gems given to me -t he wish fulfilling gem of devotional
service.
May all your impediments be swept away by merciful
glance of Lord Chaitanya.
Sincerely yours
Atmarama dasa.
Wednesday 31 May 2017
Layers
My dear reader!
Yesterday evening I was dusting off my old memories and spend time reading about the name I was given by my spiritual advisor. For that purpose I was reading from book, called "Teachings of Lord Chaitanya":
"The Lord then began to explain each and every one of these words. As far as the word ātmārāma is concerned, the Lord explained that the word ātmā means (1) the Supreme Absolute Truth, (2) the body, (3) the mind, (4) endeavor, (5) intelligence, (6) conviction and (7) nature. The word ārāma means enjoyer; therefore, anyone who takes pleasure in the cultivation of the knowledge of these seven items is known as an ātmārāma."
This clearly indicates the multilayer of personality. I recall Shrek, explaining to his friend Donkey layers of his personality. He gave example of an onion.
Donkey at the first meeting, unknown to himself, was seeing the inner layers:
Shrek: "Listen, little donkey! What am I?!"
Donkey: "Hmm.. aaa.. Really tall?"
Shrek: "Noo!!! I am an ogre!... Does that not bother you?"
Donkey: "Nope!"
Later on, in another conversation Donkey says:
- "You are so wrapped in your layers, you are afraid of your own feelings!"
Yesterday evening I was dusting off my old memories and spend time reading about the name I was given by my spiritual advisor. For that purpose I was reading from book, called "Teachings of Lord Chaitanya":
"The Lord then began to explain each and every one of these words. As far as the word ātmārāma is concerned, the Lord explained that the word ātmā means (1) the Supreme Absolute Truth, (2) the body, (3) the mind, (4) endeavor, (5) intelligence, (6) conviction and (7) nature. The word ārāma means enjoyer; therefore, anyone who takes pleasure in the cultivation of the knowledge of these seven items is known as an ātmārāma."
This clearly indicates the multilayer of personality. I recall Shrek, explaining to his friend Donkey layers of his personality. He gave example of an onion.
Donkey at the first meeting, unknown to himself, was seeing the inner layers:
Shrek: "Listen, little donkey! What am I?!"
Donkey: "Hmm.. aaa.. Really tall?"
Shrek: "Noo!!! I am an ogre!... Does that not bother you?"
Donkey: "Nope!"
Later on, in another conversation Donkey says:
- "You are so wrapped in your layers, you are afraid of your own feelings!"
I hope these videos are still available on YouTube, when you read this.
In my search for truth in my advisor I have found real friend, who see all my layers and always come back for me, because - "that is what friends do!"
In whatever layer of my multilayer being I am currently wrapped in, he is willing to help me and - he is able to do so, because he understands ALL my layers.
I wish you all to find such a friend, who is not your friend just for one of your layers, he will be next to you in your search deeper self, when you discover new layer of yours.
Some may find also example of Russian dolls very relevant.
Hmm, there is seven dolls as well! may be accident, may be not.
Another part of my name, related to be enjoyer, asks for another post. In it I will talk about another layer, but tis time about layers of joy, pleasure, satisfaction, happiness and bliss.
Than k you for your time
Wish you all happy discovery of your layers!
Atmarama dasa.
Tuesday 30 May 2017
Dust
Good morning, my dear!
If you ask me, who I am addressing today, it is you -
my reader!
My dear mind, I have not forgotten about you too. You
are also my dear friend! Every time I talk about memory, desire, want and do
not want, like and do not like, please understand that I mean you, my der mind.
These are your affairs and I can not do anything without you.
Common sense is reminding me, that it is not very good
to spend time in writing like this during my working yours, but because you
keep reading this, I want to keep your attention going.
Some 5 centuries ago there was one pure soul born in Muslim
community. Due to his good learning and sharp intelligence he was chosen by Muslim
king to be his minister of internal affairs. King himself was spending most of
the time in conquering other countries and all the duties to look after welfare
of his kingdom was left to Dabir Khas, that was his name at the time. As
pure soul, he was attracted to devotional lifestyle and decided to spend extra
time studying scriptures and associating with holy people. he wrote to king
Husain Shah that he can not continue his work and take sick leave. I do not
want to write anything to my boss yet, since I am doing my main duties more
less, but following good example of this honest and pure soul I also spend some
time in studies and associating with people, who also are on the same path od
cleansing their hearts.
You may ask again, what is the title all about? Please
listen with undivided attention. i will give two examples to make my point.
Few days ago, I was in our country house and there is
roads crossing each other just next to the house. Those who are not been there,
you are welcome to visit, others - please come again. So, one of these roads
are not covered with tar and every time some car or tractor passes, there is
more dust every day, since weather is dry. That dust covering everything around
and it is hardly possible to see more than 5-6 meters, what to say about nice scenery
and blooming flowers in fields close by. There was one old newspaper left
outside, which after month was covered with layer of dust so thick, that no one
can recognize a letter, unless the dust is removed.
The same day we talked with my mother about her experiences
while cleaning a house. There are matter not as bad as with newspaper, but she
likes to keep her room and kitchen clean and she is doing that just before she
is leaving house for city. When she comes back, she feels happy and satisfied,
because on arrival, everything is clean and it feels like a home. Still, the
cleaning itself takes a lot of her time and energy. Doing cleaning at the age
of 78 is not an easy task. Also, she realized: "When I look at my room
after 2 hours of intense work, it looks almost same. Any person (add I just can
guess, she meant also me) will not see the difference, but for me it is so different.
I feel better."
To round up my dusty topic I will quote first verse
from Shri Shikshashtakam - eight step instruction poem, which from Sanskrit
also can mean eight step pats for one , who wants to follow.
Glory to the Sri Krishna Sankirtana, which cleanses
the heart of all the dust accumulated for years and extinguishes the fire of
conditional life, of repeated birth and death. This sankirtana movement is the
prime benediction for humanity at large because it spreads the rays of the
benediction moon. It is the life of all transcendental knowledge. It increases
the ocean of transcendental bliss, and it enables us to fully taste the nectar
for which we are always anxious.
As old proverb goes - Cleanliness is next to
godliness. This was quoted even by rat in great animation movie Ratatouille,
while he was sniffing garbage to check it for poison.
I humbly ask all my readers to consider for yourself.
If the newspaper is unreadable in so short while, how we can see things clear,
using our mind, which we did not care to dust off for such along time. you say
it is not dusty? I will answer by words of Voldemort: "He is not dead, because
I did not kill him!" If you did not make endeavor to clean your mind, it
IS dusty. Everything in this world gets stale and degrades. Let’s start form cleanliness
of our environment - places we go, places we live. When we are in habit have
clean environment - look at your friends! man is known by company he keeps. Go
on be friends, just observe - how clean habits they have. Next will be cleaning
of your own habits,
Inner life starts, when you start to feel need to
clean up your mind - want and not want, like and not like, clean your memories,
dust them off, put in new order. Gradually you will star to feel a need to
clean your intention, good and bad and why. That means you have come to clean
your intelligence.
When some day you ask your self - who am I, why am I
here, what is my purpose, this will indicate, that you reached the doorstep of
your soul.
Happy journey on this path to all of you, my dear
readers.
Your servant on this path
Atmarama dasa.
P.S. Please do not tell anyone about your reading or
your inner cleaning process – you are doing it for their good anyway. They will
feel de difference even without telling them. They will not blame you for being
self-centered. They will know the inner gravity of yours. They will want to
become your mind readers and it will keep them gessing, so your life will not
be boring ever again.
Exodus
My dear reader!
Thank you very much for reading my previous posts and this one as well.
I would like to invite all my readers to express their feedback on reading
this. If you want to stay, I can only say, that all your inner thoughts and
motives is not a secret even for people with extrasensory abilities, even more
so for Supreme being, well known for His omnipotence. So - be honest with
yourself - ho ahead and ask questions, share your experiences, just comment or
give some advice, how to write better. If you wish to stay anonymous in this, I
am not going to teach you, how to create some temporary identity - internet is
very welcoming in this regard. In this writing I will tell you things, what are
very der to me and even intimate, therefore this page is for very close friends. If you decide to share link to this, please make sure this is
your close friend and he will not take it lightly or with judging attitude.
People who are interested in finding their real self are very welcome.
Today I will introduce myself little bit more than you can find on Facebook,
shortly analyze, why I am writing this and last - what I am practicing. As a
storyline for this I will follow few points from second book from Old
Testament - Exodus. That is history, religious and ethical book, most common in
this part of the world. Exodus translates as "Names" or "Going
out" and finishes with commandments, given to Moses.
My life story, worthwhile telling starts almost 30 years ago, 20 years
before that has only few events I will tell. First memory in this life I have,
when I was 6 days old, looking and listening to train, bringing me from my
native town to Riga. My parents where bringing me to Valmiera region.
My fist experience with ancient India culture was at age of 5, when my
father was reading short retelling of Mahabharata in Latvian, compiled in short
book.
First time I asked myself, why I am born in this particular family was
soon after that - probably at age of 6 or 7.
Most unforgettable experience of death came few years later, when giving
answer to my question: "What is happening after death?", my mother
answered: "You will be eaten by worms!". That day my usual walk to
school took 2 hours longer. Why after that I was still very optimistic, I will
tell you another time.
My first dreams of female temptation came soon after. That was
ending in the same way every time - I did put blanket over her, saying some
calming and kind words.
At age of 14 or so, seeing pilgrims walking towards Catholic holy church
in Aglona, I decided, that it is not proper to go there without baptizing
ritual. i went to river close by and performed it myself by submerging in
water. Nothing more interesting all school years.
There were interesting meetings I was attending during my first year in
Agricultural Academy in Jelgava. Some students, interested to find universal
laws came together and discussed any book or magazine even slightly giving hint
to that.
My attempt to find answers in Lutheran church Sunday school was no good,
I was asked to stop attending those gatherings, due too much and too
complicated questions.
Two years in Russian army went by with only one incident, when the
Praporschik was drinking blood with vodka from freshly killed pig. This was my
first step towards later tendency to not eat meat.
After army came period of Latvian folk song singing, out of them I liked
most the mentioning of God and his laws.
During year 1989 I met first devotee, selling books and magazines on the
street. That evening on the train I was singing mantras all the way from Riga
to Jelgava. Here i will put my biography in pause. it is getting late and I
want to touch other two pints.
This blog, called Bhakti Lata, translated as creeper of devotion, was
created some 10 years ago, bur was sitting empty. Now I am writing here again.
The main purpose is to share with others my search for my real self and how it
led me to the pint of becoming follower of teachings, descending from supreme
being Krishna. I also write for self-purification, since putting your thoughts
on paper results in better self analysis, as well as some serious readers may
get benefit.
I have to admit, that previous blog was directed to one very dear person
in my life and I see in myself desire, that these writings are also attract attention.
This time I want to go deeper and be more honest to myself and to my reader.
There is also unwanted desire of many followers, reading this writing. If in
some time it will not go away, I will reconsider to go on with this writing or
not. Last thing I have to be careful about - posing realizations and wisdom as
my own. Practically all ideas or words, worth following or listening are coming
from more pure persons or scriptures. If you find something interesting or
valuable, please give all credit to them. Without prolonged influence from
these pure courses I would not be able to write even line of sense making text.
Now about my practical application. i decided to spend minimum 2-3 hours
a day in prayers, meditating on Good's names. This is the conclusion I came to,
and more detailed backup of this outcome will probably follow.
As I promised, story today ends in commandments given to Moses by God.
1. You shall have no other gods
before Me.
2. You shall make no idols.
3. You shall not take the name of
the Lord your God in vain.
4. Keep the Sabbath day holy.
5. Honor your father and your
mother.
6. You shall not murder.
7. You shall not commit adultery.
8. You shall not steal.
9. You shall not bear false
witness against your neighbor.
10. You shall not covet.
This is something for you to
meditate on till tomorrow.
Wishing you all deep and lasting happiness
Atmarama dasa.
Inception
Good
morning, my dear!
- How did
you like our morning session of practical work? I can say thank you, for being
with me most of the time. Did not notice much enthusiasm, pat at least you
where patient and little bit interested.
-You know,
I do not trust you much, but sometimes the places we go and things you say make
sense to me and I am curious, what's coming next. You got my attention, by
making that promise of yours, so I am going to stay with you, while you are
doing your funny prayers, just to see, how everything will develop.
-Yes, I
noticed, you liked the walk in the park in the morning, rising sun and
especially the flowers. Here they are, in case it fades from your memory:
- I agree,
they are beautiful, thank you for bringing me there.
- I am
happy, you like them. You may wonder again, why I gave out talk today such
uncommon title?!
- I know,
you are going to try to same thing as in that movie - put some weird idea into
my sub conscious mind.
- My dear!
You are the mind! You decide - you like it or not. If you will like something
so much, that you want to keep it, then it will stay yours, as long as you want
to keep it, or replace with something better :) look at the dictionary! It means - beginning. Like Genesis.
- You may
remember the part in movie, when Cobb went into Fishers dream, he had his task
to fulfill, but he also gave some tool, how to recognize, that he was in the
dream - "Try to remember, how you got here! Who you are? What was
before!" In such a way he gave him a way to be real, almost awake, even in
dream.
- Yes, that
sounds like madness to me - falling asleep, going inside dream, while you have
dream. I would send those people, who made this movie, to hospital.
- Sounds
reasonable, but when they made this movie, they where not sleeping!! Anyways,
point is, that there is way to recognize, that something is not real and there are
few ways how to end the dream. Following movie plot, suicide is not preferred.
- Why would
someone want to kill himself, just to wake up! That must be so terrible dream
then!
- Agree,
alarm clock is better. Other crucial point, which is not given much attention,
but if you where attentive, it did not go unnoticed. Most of them went to sleep
willingly. That is why I am thankful, that we go to sleep willingly, not
because it is forced upon us - being too tired.
- Yes, but
some work hard and are very tired in evenings! What’s wrong is that?
- Even they
work hard with sense that there is tomorrow. If there is no tomorrow, why work
at all?
- Common -
look at yourself! you ar talking to me, like there is no tomorrow. I know,
there is many things you want to tell me, but take it easy. By the way, you must do your work too!
Oh, thanks for
reminding! Therefore, I call you my friend! You remind me important things. You
are my alarm clock. Take care, talk to you soon!
Monday 29 May 2017
Arrival
My dear mind!
You may wonder, why I have given such a title to our conversation today.
Please listen carefully, because by doing so you will be blessed with wonderful
talent, which you have, but it is still sleeping.
Who better than you know, what the sleep is. Every night you spend long
hours alone and bored without fresh experiences. then you start creating
something on your own. As you consider me to be your friend, you are showing me
also your nice art. Now I ask you to remember those moments, when you had some
unusual visions. They where a kind of déjà vu - something from future or
distant past. When I woke up, I was wondering too - how to tell, where it is
coming from. From one side nothing like that has happened to me, from other
side - it feels so familiar, so close, so natural, that it must be about me.
Now we come to the "Arrival". We both with great interest and
satisfaction watched recent movie about alien heptopods. The amazing result of
learning their language was also those déjà vu, which Louise had about the
future of her own life.
The talent I was talking about, that you may discover during this our
conversation, is your ability to have similar visions regularly and completely
new experience of time. You know, I am not talking about daydreaming, which is like
night reams - these are your wonderful, still unreal creations. I am very grateful
to you for them, since I was also not bored by watching them, but after while,
I had to return to my real life and dreams stayed in your realm. I am going to
tell secret, that that type of language is also available to you, including all
effects coming from it. I will give you a hint - look at the big title...
Time to take rest. Do not show much of your pictures tonight! Let us
both have good sleep. Tomorrow we will have some practical work to do.
Good night!
Introduction.
My dear mind!
I would like to introduce myself, but I do not know, who really I
am. I can only refer to names, by which I am called by people around me. My parents
gave me name Austris, although even they most of time called me son or darling
son. For my siblings I was brother, for Russian kids on the street of my native
town I was "латыш галдыш". For some time in school I had nicknames
"china boy" and when I did not want to finish my music school, I was
called "sailor", because at that time I wanted to become one. As student
I was called "singer", due to my habit to spend all evenings walking
around dormitories and singing. Later, as I was introduced to community of
devotees, I was given name Atmarama dasa - servant of self satisfied. My
travels to Thailand resulted to one more name - Anusorn, translated to tokes,
something dear and important to give another person, when you are separated.
Kallis (dear one) probably is last one.
This experience of talking to my own mind is quite new, so I will try to
follow example and guidelines, how it was done by pure and soul, who was living
in Bengal some 500 years ago. This is first verse from his poem "Shri
Manah-shiksha"- instructions to the mind:
O my dear brother, my foolish mind, taking hold of your feet, I humbly
pray to you with sweet words. Please give up all pride and quickly develop
deep, loving attachment for the spiritual master, Śrī Vrajadhāma, the residents
of Vraja, the Vaiṣṇavas, the brāhmaṇas, your dīkṣā-mantras, the holy names of
the Supreme Lord, and the shelter of Śrī Śrī Rādhā-Kṛṣṇa, the eternally
youthful Divine Couple of Vraja.
This will take a while, when I will approach you like that, but please
be ready, that this dialogue with you will come to this.
Your friend
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